freeasthewind2 musings

I called my doctor who is 1hr and half away and made an appointment and made sure they knew I wanted to see the doctor not the nurse practioner. I took the day off drove that for. Got there and no doctor she decided to play adminstrator at the hospital. I spent 4 hours the socalled practioner said it had been a year since I had been there and he couldnt do this or that. I said I knew I had to see the dam doctor that is why I made the appointment to see her. Especially with the drive up there. It came out he gave me 30 days worth of pain pills instead of the 60 for 30 days. And to scripts for things I already had and not the main one I needed. And he couldnt fill out the handicapp sticker as if I didnt know that. And she was the one that diagnosis me but of course he couldnt read that far back. He said your blood pressure is a lttle high. I said dam you think so. Your lucky I dont stroke out. I was so mad I was sick all evening. And now I have to work today with no agents to transfer to. I think that friday was the worse day I have had in a long time. so nothng was really accomplished. except making me want to punch a bunch of fools in the face. Hope you all had a better day

"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."

"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."

"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."

"I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life'."

"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."

"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."

"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."

"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."

"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone.

People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."

"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

Been running through my mind all day

Touch of grey

Must be getting early
Clocks are running late
Faint light of the morning sky looks so phony
Dawn is breaking everywhere
Light a candle, curse the glare
Draw the curtains, I don't care, cuz
It's alright

I will get by
I will get by
I will get by
I will survive

I see you've got your fist out
Say your piece and get out
Yes I get the gist of it, but
It's alright
Sorry that you feel that way
The only there is to say:
Every silver lining's got a touch of grey

I will get by
I will get by
I will get by
I will survive

It's a lesson to me
The eagles and the beggars and the seas
The ABC's we all must face
Try to keep a little grace

It's a lesson to me
The deltas and the east and the freeze
The ABC's we all think of
And try to win a little love

I know the rent is in arrears
The dog has not been fed in years
It's even worse than it appears, but
It's alright
Cows giving kerosene
Kid can't read at seventeen
The words he knows are all obscene, but
It's alright

I will get by
I will get by
I will get by
I will survive

The shoe is on the hand that fits.
There's really nothing much to it
Whistle through your teeth and spit, cuz
It's alright
Oh well, a touch of grey
Kinda suits you anyway
And that was all I had to say, and
It's alright

I will get by
I will get by
I will get by
I will survive

We will get by
We will get by
We will get by
We will survive

We will get by
We will get by
We will get by
We will survive

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a
battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between two
"wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret,
greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false
pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility,
kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

Which one do you feed

Someone will always be prettier.
Someone will always be smarter.
Someone's house will be bigger.
Someone will drive a better car.
Someone's children will do better in school.
And Someone's husband will fix more things around the house.
So let it go, and love you and your circumstances.
Think about it.
The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart.
And the most highly favored Woman on your job may be unable to have children.
And the richest woman you know,
who's got the car, the house, the clothes....might be lonely.
And the word says if "I have not Love, I am nothing."
So, again, love you. Love who you are.
Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say
"I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed to be disappointed!"

"Winners make things happen.
Losers let things happen.

Standing by the Waters edge
>
> Have you ever stood by the waters edge and felt the peaceful
surroundings?
> You can feel serenity when standing near the rushing waves along an
oceans
> beach, lying by the sunny seaside, boating in a lake cove or just
sticking
> your feet into a creek bed. It is easy to sense the tranquility that
the
> water brings if you open your heart to its glistening qualities.
>
> As you stand at the edge of the water where it meets up with land
that forms
> the shoreline an inner sensation overpowers you which impresses the
> emotional comprehension that there is no limit to harmony in the
world.
> Sadly that only lasts for a short time and soon life spins back into
play
> and you must return to reality.
>
> When life is bearing down on you like a storm take a moment to
return to the
> waters edge and feel the calm. Take a trip to the waters edge in
person, in
> your thoughts or even in your dreams. Allow the experience to relax
you and
> bring you to a special place where peace and tranquility reside.
Store a
> little of that in your soul to take along with you as you cope with
each new
> day.

Go past the mountains,
Past the sea,
Over the hill tops,
There you will find me.
Not my body,
Not my things,
What you will find,
Is my soul and my dreams.
Flowing ever so gracefully,
Like a comet in space,
I look around for my meaning,
My true "happy" place.
Circling Jupiter,
And then riding Saturn's rings,
My soul will continue forever,
Like a never ending dream.

This came from my brothers blog but I think it is so true that I thought I would share.
The fact is that most kids don't have one. I can't blame T.V. completely. Because I had a T.V. and I did my share of watching it. But I loved being outside and my friends and I would go play in the creek or in the woods around our area. We would be explorers or cowboys maybe army men on patrol. Our playground was the old west or in the caveman day's. We found middle earth thanks to my friends mom reading the hobbit to us. We were on distant planets thanks to scifi. We journeyed to the center of the earth. We fought Vampires and became werewolves or hunted the Frankenstein Monster thanks to Sammy Terry. We went back and forward in time like Doctor Who. we were spies like 007. And all of our adventures started in our own backyard. Kids now a day's don't know what an imagination is. If it isn't on T.V. or video game and this computer forget it. They just stand around like zombies. I liked my imagination which is why I like to read. I also write my own stories using my imagination. And you know I think I'll get back to it. So if you'll excuse me I think I'll go out to my backyard and find middle earth or look for buried treasure. Or I'll just take a walk and let my imagination take me where it wants to go. Imagination is a terrible thing to waste

Prologue

You should have been the boy and you should have been the girl!!
This statement gave birth to the Black Sheep of the family. Nothing unusual about the family, just a normal fifties dysfunctional family with grandparents,father and mother with two kids living together.
There was a 6 year age difference between them with the girl being the oldest. The first time the girl heard this statement she was 16 and the boy was 10.
Nothing was ever added before or after the statement. It wasn't said in a mean way, in fact it was thought to be funny. Who knew it was taken to heart by two kids and effect thier view of each as adults.

Chapter one

The realization of how Missy became the Black Sheep of the family came to her as she was looking through the family photos and with these photos came the memories flooding to her mind like a flood after a major rain. Actually, she was branded a black sheep starting with that statement. But, was it the statement or who she was and who they weren't.
The journey back for Missy was going to bring either an awareness to Missy of who she is or maybe heartbreak of who the ones she loved couldnt accept because of who they were.
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This was sent to me earlier and I still think it is right on. Enjoy
>Long ago and far away,
>In a land that time forgot,
>Before the days of Dylan,
>Or the dawn of Camelot.
>There lived a race of innocents,
>And they were you and me,
>Long ago and far away
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>Oh, there was truth and goodness
>In that land where we were born,
>Where navels were for oranges,
>And Peyton Place was porn.
>For Ike was in the White House,
>And Hoss was on TV,
>And God was in His heaven
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>We learned to gut a muffler,
>We washed our hair at dawn,
>We spread our crinolines to dry
>In circles on the lawn.
>
>And they could hear us coming
>All the way to Tennessee,
>All starched and sprayed and rumbling
>in the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>We longed for love and romance,
>And waited for the prince,
>And Eddie Fisher married Liz,
>And no one's seen him since.
>
>We danced to "Little Darlin'",
>And Sang to "Stagger Lee"
>And cried for Buddy Holly
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>Only girls wore earrings then,
>And three was one too many,
>And only boys wore flat-top cuts,
>Except for Jean McKinney.
>
>And only in our wildest dreams
>Did we expect to see
>A boy named George, with Lipstick
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>We fell for Frankie Avalon,
>Annette was oh, so nice,
>And when they made a movie,
>They never made it twice.
>
>We didn't have a Star Trek Five,
>Or Psycho Two and Three,
>Or Rockey-Rambo Twenty
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>Miss Kitty had a heart of gold,
>And Chester had a limp,
>And Reagan was a Democrat
>Whose co-star was a chimp.
>
>We had a Mr Wizard,
>But not a Mr T,
>And Oprah couldn't talk, yet
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>We had our share of heroes,
>We never thought they'd go,
>At least not Bobby Darin,
>Or Marilyn Monroe.
>
>For youth was still eternal,
>And life was yet to be,
>And Elvis was forever,
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>We'd never seen the rock band
>That was Grateful to be Dead,
>And Airplanes weren't named Jefferson,
>And Zeppelins weren't Led.
>
>And Beatles lived in gardens then,
>And Monkees in a tree,
>Madonna was a virgin
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>We'd never heard of Microwaves,
>Or telephones in cars,
>And babies might be bottle-fed,
>But they weren't grown in jars.
>
>And pumping iron got wrinkles out,
>And "gay" meant fancy-free,
>And dorms were never coed
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>We hadn't seen enough of jets
>To talk about the lag,
>And microchips were what was left at
>The bottom of the bag.
>
>And Hardware was a box of nails,
>And bytes came from a flea,
>And rocket ships were fiction
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>Buicks came with portholes,
>And side show came with freaks,
>And bathing suits came big enough
>To cover both your cheeks.
>And Coke came just in bottles,
>And skirts came to the knee,
>And Castro came to power
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>We had no Crest with Fluoride,
>We had no Hill Street Blues,
>We all wore superstructure bras
>Designed by Howard Hughes.
>We had no patterned pantyhose
>Or Lipton herbal tea
>Or prime-time ads for condoms
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>
>There were no golden arches,
>No Perriers to chill,
>And fish were not called Wanda,
>And cats were not called Bill.
>And middle-aged was thirty-five
>And old was forty-three,
>And ancient was our parents
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>But all things have a season,
>Or so we've heard them say,
>And now instead of Maybelline
>We swear by Retin-A.
>And they send us invitations
>To join AARP,
>We've come a long way, baby,
>From the Land That Made Me Me.
>So now we face a brave new world
>In slightly larger jeans,
>And wonder why they're using
>Smaller print in magazines.
>
>And we tell our children's children
>of the way it used to be,
>Long ago, and far away
>In the Land That Made Me Me.
>--Author unknown